It's been a really long winter. My last post was over 3 months ago & when I read it, I just want to hug that Saddie because little did she know what the next 3 months would have in store for her. Over the course of the winter, I've written blog posts but have never published them because I wasn't ready to share the heartbreak, humiliation & feelings of failure that I'd been dealing with since December. I had contemplated many times with just publishing what I had written but

Hello, Let's start off by saying I suck so bad at keeping up with my blog. I swear I don't mean to. Let me explain... It all started when I posted my last blog update a few months ago. I had never posted it on Facebook until then bc it's something like, I don't mind my friends on Twitter reading it bc most understand me. But once i put it on Facebook, ~actual~ people I ~actually~ knew in real life were able to read my inner, most personal thoughts. I know: it sounds so weird.