It's been a really long winter. My last post was over 3 months ago & when I read it, I just want to hug that Saddie because little did she know what the next 3 months would have in store for her. Over the course of the winter, I've written blog posts but have never published them because I wasn't ready to share the heartbreak, humiliation & feelings of failure that I'd been dealing with since December. I had contemplated many times with just publishing what I had written but