It's been a really long winter. My last post was over 3 months ago & when I read it, I just want to hug that Saddie because little did she know what the next 3 months would have in store for her. Over the course of the winter, I've written blog posts but have never published them because I wasn't ready to share the heartbreak, humiliation & feelings of failure that I'd been dealing with since December. I had contemplated many times with just publishing what I had written but

Here we are in December. It’s hard to believe 2018 was an actual year, never mind the fact we survived it. I’ve spent the past couple of weeks reflecting on my life – where I’ve been, where I am, where I want to be. I’m not going to lie, it’s been really hard. Self care isn’t sheet masks & positive vibes. It’s a lot of hard work – especially when it comes to forgiveness & moving on. What they don’t tell you is that you will cry (in my case it’s a lot because I LITERALLY CRY A